Oh Beth, I'm sorry for what you have been through. Bullying can be so turmaatic and have such long standing negative effects on someone. You are right about verbal insults not being true! Bullies will do anything to hurt and have power over someone else including convincing someone they are fat' or ugly' when they are far from either of those things.Are you still being bullied? If so, you really need to tell someone who might be able to put a stop to it, you shouldn't have to live your life in fear.Even when the bullying stops, it can take a long time to heal from the experience and it's important there is someone you can talk to about what happened to you.Personally I don't think there is such a thing as normal'! The only normal I know is the setting on an old washing machine or tumble drier. Seriously though, we are all different in our own right and that is a good thing. Being ill doesn't make us abnormal' it just makes us ill. People don't describe someone suffering from the flu or even cancer abnormal' but many don't hesitate to describe people suffering from mental illness as odd' abnormal' or a freak'. It's not right, is it!Keep fighting to get better hon and try to talk to someone about how you feel.